Toning it down.
The number of times we’ve been asked to keep it cool, just relax, come to our senses, shape up. To not distress others or cause a “scene”. & can we tone it down! To the degree that we lose contact with our feelings altogether, so well that some of us stop feeling entirely, begin to doubt own own reactions & dismiss our emotions. We tone it down.
When therapy is “full” and we try our best to learn how to cope with society & ourselves, vulnerable people become depending on someone or something else to make it through the day. Characterised by self-destructive behaviours, unstable sense of self & fear of abandonment, the situation is desperate & precarious. There is no coincidence that the demographics of borderline patients are primarily women, trans- & gender-non-conforming people. & as always, the most vulnerable are left out of the statistics, undiagnosed and without access to medical support, altogether. The story of BPD is the story of abuse, repeated abuse. Abuse from family or loved ones, abuse from society & working conditions, abuse from yourself & the medical establishment; a response to unfairness & invisibility. It’s political and a personal struggle. & sometimes it’s not getting out of bed in the morning or eye rolls about your mood swings.
In this zine, there are a bunch of quotes from the people we bump into, friends & medical professionals. The quotes are all anonymised as is some of the content. The bulk of the content is written by myself (& so doesn’t have my name written by it as the work of the other contributors), a wave good bye to a diagnosis I’m both leaving behind & resigning myself to; put together in the frustration that follows from invalidation. In being vulnerable, as everyone in this publication are, sharing medical records, notes directly from diaries & art relating to personal anxieties & fears; this is getting through the day & for once, not toning it down.
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Project portraying “villains” or unpleasant female characters in pop culture and mythology. (Ongoing)
Finally, the ELAK Tarot deck is here!
Balancing between kitsch and simplicity, this is a rich and colourful deck, filled with mystical symbolism and queer characters alike. Individual watercolour and ink illustration feature on each of the 78 cards, making it a unique and personal deck.
The ELAK Tarot is based on the classic Rider Waite deck and follows the same structure.
1st edition. Measures 70x140mm. Cards are plastic coated and printed on Heretic 305um Black Cored Playing Card Board.
For interpretations and guidance in the practice of Tarot, we recommend e.g. The Little Red Tarot.
Illustration and design by Linnea Frank.
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The ELAK tarot deck has been reviewed:
Promotion and illustration for queer punk night in Stockholm 2017.
London’s only Ancient Greek themed queer lady night. Playing only the goddesses of RnB and Pop. More info.
– Illustration –
This page refers to the illustration done for Cuntemporary, graphic design can be found via this link.
CUNTemporary is a non-profit organisation that works with individuals and groups that explore feminist and queer art practices and theories.
CUNTemporary provides a newsletter and daily listings of events related to feminist and queer art practices in the UK.
The events team curates talks, screenings, exhibitions, performances, events and club nights with the participation of a multidisciplinary and international group of artists, performers and theorists, mainly in London, but also around the UK and abroad.
We welcome networking and collaborative opportunities from curators, academics, artists, activists, institutions and alternative venues.
As an organisation we have remained entirely self-funded since our establishment in 2012, and have been organising our activities thanks to a dedicated team of designers, artists, technicians, researchers, editors and curators.
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